Reflection on New Years Eve

The end of the year is almost here and we all look forward to a better year tomorrow.   The news channels are broadcasting doom if the fiscal cliff happens.    Tonight perhaps the gavel will drop on the congressional floor,  as does the ball in New York City, and we will all tumble over the fiscal cliff.  We don't know.

As this year ends we need to reflect on our own lives and how to live a better life and how to cut wasteful spending, monetarily and emotionally, out of our lives.

I can't thank our Lord enough for the special people He has sent into my life.  One was my husband.  I was rebellious from teenage years on, looking for adventure and love.  Also, I was terribly naive and shy, I didn't know about life or about people and was hurt many times.  I put up a wall around me, and no one got in.  Getting married was the greatest thing that ever happened to me.  It gave me a family, it gave me a home, it gave me security and it gave me love.   Tim, himself, was naive and innocent in many ways, and that is what made me trust him.  He gave me strength and the ability to believe in myself.  During all our years in marriage he always bought me the most wonderful gifts, and some I didn't appreciate until years later.  Like the sewing machine....the Kitchenaide Mixer with all attachments....beautiful heavy sweaters, robes and coats --- he always gave me quality items.  Likewise, over the years, I stayed away from the bargain bins for his clothes and let him choose his own from the finest men's shop in town.  All was good.  He was a gentleman, in so many ways, but still not grown up in so many others.

Satan comes into the family life with his lies and methods of corruption, so there were many ups and downs, but through it all, believing in the best of each other, and having faith that God will get us through, we made it to the end.

Its been seven years since Tim died, almost eight.  I tease the children that one day I'm going to find me a farmer husband and have my own home  again, so they are invested into the dream that I might one day leave my new home with them.  My daughter-in-law was going to try to hook me up with some of the elderly farmers and ranchers she met, but I want all things to given by God and I will wait on Him for what He has planned. When God gives something, He gives His best and I will wait on Him. Yet, if there was someone in my life, then is God still at the forefront in my life? Perhaps His idea for my life is something else, I don't know.   If God doesn't wish that to happen, then all is good.  I have had a good life with a good man, and he has blessed me with children that I love.   He will reign in my life.

For New Years the only resolution I am going to have is to dance at least one dance every day.  The rest, I leave up to the Lord.  The babies love to dance, so that should keep us busy.  The Lord loves busy hands, so I am sure He will keep us busy too.  God is good, I look forward to the New Year.

HAPPY NEW YEARS - May the New Year bring you the hopes and dreams that you have desired and may God be with our Country and may His presence be known to all the world.